I have to admit, I want this painting back. Or I want it back at this stage. I have a hard time moving forward from a good start, or from a good idea. I don't believe it's valid. I have to destroy that stage and set up a crappier situation.
It seems I dealt with grandiosity better when I was younger. I was more oblivious to my own delusions, and so, inadvertently, I indulged them more.
Something to consider.